Take it from me

Day after each painful day… I just feel like sleeping away all my worries, cause it’s raining in here again. Problems. Frustrations. Regrets. All these things are coming back to me, and giving me a big slap on the face for my mistakes.

Some big sister I am of the barkada. I’m the eldest, and yet, I’m the most problematic one. I guess it all comes with the package of being the eldest.

I’m suppose to be one giving advice to my friends, and yet, it’s the opposite. I know they know better than me at times. I try not to listen to them when they keep telling me that the guy I liked and me are ‘bagay’. Then my best friend tells me she doesn’t like the guy that I like now. I’m in complete confusion.

And I’ve been lying and denying to my friends of what I really feel. I keep pushing things away, but in the end, I’m the one who is pained by the faults I’ve done. I really sincerely want to apologize to the guy, since I always ignore him when we happen to pass by each other… and he is leaving soon for college. Can’t believe how time flies so fast. Can’t believe I have to grow up, and move on to bigger pictures.

I’m sorry if you don’t understand what I’m writing. I’m really just confused, and the thought just keep on popping on my head…

For now, I just wanna let things go, and as they say, just go with the flow.

Should you judge someone whom you don’t really know all that well because of a little mistake he/she has done? Should you judge that person immediately after a petty mistake? In my opinion, no. You have to get to know that person better.

Why am I saying this, you ask? Well, I felt so irritated with our English teacher after what she said. The whole story goes like this:

Majority of the class didn’t expect that our English teacher was going to check our ‘project’, a journal of the values you have learned from day-to-day encounters. Only a handful of Archis brought their journals to be checked by Ma’am. As for the rest of us? She got so irritated and started to sermon us after we asked her to give us another chance. What will you learn, she asked us. She judged us for what we really are not, and said that our personality reflects in the way we care and bring our journal. Please. That’s a little petty thing. Why not just give us a nother chance, Ma’am? Are you going to show a class record filled with zeroes in our project to your Department Head? Come on! i know you want to be cleared of the pressure, but we did not expect that you’ll be checking our journals!!!

A lot of my classmates got mad too.  Who wouldn’t? Majority of the class dislikes (the word hate is too strong a word) our English teacher. English is my very favorite subject, but because of her, somehow, I feel frustrated to learn the subject. And the favoritism? I don’t know, but I feel as if there is. I noticed that Ma’am only called those who were able to pass their projects to do some things for her. I feel as if, she somehow dislikes me and my barkada. But that’s only a presumption.

I don’t know if I could take this any longer. I hope I could last this almost ending school year peacefully and calmly. And so much for a birthday. I don’t really feel like celebrating my birthday anyway. I don’t know why…

…And make Butuan flood. Yes people, Butuan City is flooding with water, and there is nothing that can stop the rain from falling.

For the past couple of days, it’s nothing but rain, rain, rain. And the result? Floods. Dirty, murky waters. Wet clothes. Wet socks. I haven’t been properly dry since December. And even in school, the campus is flooding with water! We even had to wear slippers. Well, a lot of students have, but I refuse to. I need my own slippers. But I could also wear those rubber boots right? I have a pair anyway.

I actually want to see the sun tomorrow. It’s kinda cool to wake up shivering because it’s cold because of the rain though. But I need to be dry!!

Phew! That’s all the updates of my life so far. Until next time!

Why is it, that the 3rd Periodic Test every year always falls on January, and always falls near my birthday??? Kamalasan talaga. This is the first time that my birthday is going to be the same day as our 3rd Periodic Test. When I first saw the announcements, I thought they were kidding. But then, our teachers announced that indeed, the 3rd Periodic will be on my birthday!! Nooooooo…!!!

Not a lot of people in my class know about my bday, except my SPED classmates. Darn. What an unlucky way to start the year. I’m still sick, still have asthma, and my bday’s gonna be on the 3rd Periodic. January’s supposed to be my month, instead, it’s gonna suck.

Huhuhuhuhuhuhu… not fair!! I wish I could do something about this. But I can’t. I can’t look for something to look forward to. Things are not going my way!!!!

I’ll continue to be pathetic now. So, goodbye. And a shout out to kuya Arthur who had to state the obvious about the topic, but thanks for greeting me in advance. I really appreciate that. And a shout out to the peeps who greeted me in advance too!