Take it from me

He tells me he cares, but that’s not what it seems to me!!! He doesn’t even wanna talk to me in person!!! What am I, a spare tire?? An understudy for a big sister??? ARGH!!!!

What does he take me for?? I thought he cared for me. I thought that he was my little brother. I thought I could tell him everything, all the heartaches and pains I’ve been going through…and what for?? He doesn’t care.

I left him a comment on his blog. Bahala na nga siya. If he doesn’t care, what’s the use of me chasing around for him? He doesn’t know that I’m really hurting inside, because of what he’s been doing. Sometimes, I just wanna cry and forget about him…

…but the thing is, I JUST CAN’T. He’s my friend, a special one while you’re at it. He filled in for my lack of a male perspective in school, pero minsan lang yan magaparamdam. And even if he has his life na, why can’t he just talk to me personally, kahit once in a while lang??? That’s all I’m asking for, ’cause I miss him a lot. And my friends don’t even know this.

He’s one of the persons who really knows the real me. I have a lot of personas, but he’s the one who seems to know me better than anyone else.

Hahay…I wanna cry na. But I couldn’t. One more thing that’s hurting me, is that he’s allowing other people call him the name I fondly called him before. That’s my copyrighted name, don’t take it away!!!! But I’m not talking about anyone in class ha. It someone else pa….

Hay, basta. Bahala na kung anong mangyari. Sayang nga lang, kasi I was happy last night, pero parang nawala na parang bula yung kasayahan ko…

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