Take it from me

I dedicate this post to a boy whom I will just keep under the name "brother".

Dear brother,

Last night all I thought about was you. I thought of the times we’ve been together, wishing that we could go back there.

I know you’ve changed, judging from how I saw you yesterday. You didn’t look my way. Not as much as of a ‘hi!’ or any greeting at all. You seem to avoid me, that’s why I avoided you too. You didn’t seem to care that I was there.

I wonder what I have done now to make you hate me like this. When you told me you cared, I didn’t feel it yesterday. So little tears came out of my eyes last night just because I thought of you.

I don’t really have feelings for you, because we both have our own lives and I have my own special person like you do. But I just want you to know that I’ll always be here, and you’ll always be a part of me. You made my days brighter before. You made me feel happy when I’m sad. But know, if you want to totally distance off, I’ll have to concede. But I really want you to know that I still care for you as a friend, and as your big sister.

I hope things get better for you and me.

Love,

Big sister

Tell me it’s stupid. I know I’m being emote, but this is how I feel. Comment on it. I’m ready.

I just had my first session in PECIT. It’s really my fault I had to know so much things that I had to pass there…hoo-hum…

But it’s really not that bad. I’m actually learning new things. But still, I  didn’t know anybody in there…Kainis.

I just noticed that the holidays are going to be over soon, and I haven’t done so much to make it fruitful. I really can’t wait to go back to school!! I was kinda locked up in my own little world, and at home. All I did was surf the Net, watch my favorite show, caught on with the newest songs in MYX (explainig the Paris Hilton song I reviewed), and filled my crazy imagination tank!!

And another thing today: Hanna May asked me to come and help her in helping the SPEDers with their broadcasting. To be honest, I still can’t stand one person from that group. And we all know that person’s a ‘he’.

I got up close with Bea Delicana, and talked to Anne, Jeli, Alai, and the other girls. Fedelia was also with us, which was cool. Fedelia and I kept going crazy while waiting for Hanna to come. I also saw the ANHS contestants like Ate Diana, Ate Gwyn, Ate Jem, Kuya Marco, Kuya JC, Kazu, and others.

Sayang. I wish I was a contestant too!! But I’m rooting for next year. I’ll do my best as copyreader. But for now, I’ll just wait for my turn na lang…

Hey guys…

About my shout out, it wasn’t meant for those who commented on my last post in my blog. It’s not for my friends, classmates or family members…it’s for a certain someone out there. But I wouldn’t tell who he/she is. Basta, I’m mad a certain person, but I have to say, he/she is studying at ANHS. But definitely not from Archimedes….

Sorry for the inconvenience…

I AM SOOOO MAD AT A CERTAIN PERSON!!!! (And I’m not talking about my classmates/friends or crushes in the matter, thank you!)

Don’t mind me for saying so, but I found a certain person very rude and insensitive!!! Why? Because that person rejected my sweet gesture. Oh, I wanna pound that wart!! I wanna run that wart over my dad’s car!! I wanna squish him/her!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please 

It may no be the summer or christmas holidays that I usually enjoy, but the sweet words of ‘Semestral Break’ is so sugary, that I forgive its short length of vacation days!! Yahoo!!! Sem break’s here!!

So anyway, I still have to encounter my first ANHS ICAA. It already started today, starting with the Miss Intrams pageant. I didn’t watch it, but not being able to watch it had its perks! I saw one of Akemi’s and my center of cute icons…hahaha…and I saw one of the school’s greatest distractions. I really feel as if I’m gonna have to say goodbye to the Banner Roll, because of this distraction. I promise that I will rid myself of that distraction, and focus more on my studies. But I won’t abandon that distraction, for I will occasionally greet it with joy when I see it. But then, when I look at that distraction, I feel so weak. Forsaken distraction.

One more thing: there’s this guy in school, pressumably older than I, whom I feel is followning me everywhere I go!! I don’t know… I don’t want to jump into conclusions, but I do see him everywhere I go!!! My friends told me jokingly that this guy may like me. Hahahaha…yeah right. But he’s not my type. He looks like a rebellious rocker.

I’m really excited!! My grandmother plans to take my cousin and I to Leyte, her place of birth. I’m not sure of the place though…but I can’t wait!!!

Yee-ha!!! Sem Break, here I come!!!

See you guys soon!!!

Help!!!!

We’re going to have our Periodical test, and all I’m doing is blogging…Argh.

I can’t do this!!! I’m feeling the darn pressure again. From family. From teachers. From classmates. Sometimes, I gotta admit, my last name is too big for me to fit inside. The expectations are huge. Why? Just because I’m a member of the Baladad clan. And Baladads are achievers, a well-known, well-connected clan.

I’m sorry if I had to say this, but I can’t help it! My grandma, who taught in my school, is expecting from me!! Well, if I  don’t get in the banner roll this grading period, I’m sorry, but I guess I must be getting sick of all the expectations. Why can’t I be a normal kid? Why do I have to possess so many gifts and a big IQ (hehehe)? Why did I have to be an achiever??? WHY? WHY??

I can’t stand this anymore!! I have to do my best. I have to face the pressure. I have to study Filipino!

Well, that’s it for today. I guess I’ll write after the world is normal…again. 

If I sounded dark and gloomy yesterday, forgive me. I just felt that way, until about 9 or 10 am today. We had mass, where we choir members sang the songs. As I was listening to the Priest’s homily about sufferings, I was like, ‘hey, I guess the priest was right’. I had to let go of the pain. And yes, Rach, I had to admit it was you whom I was talking about yesterday. That’s why you seemed mad at me. I’m really sorry about that. I shouldn’t have questioned you.

I drowned my damn sorrows after talking to ‘Mommy’ Heart and Ate Laurelie, and two shakes which I was not allowed, but broke the rules anyway. I felt so much better after that. I can, at least, now smile truly. And I’ve learned something from Ate Laurelie too. Have patience, while still in First Year. It’s kinda sad that the Fourth Years are leaving next year…

So much for that, we had our awarding and Science Fair closing program. Misty, Sammy and I took our 2nd Place award in the Quiz bowl for 1st Years, and I didn’t expect that I became 2nd in the Essay-Writing contest! To think I was mad at my own work…I hated it!! It was pathetic…but I guess it was good enough to land 2nd Place, right?

We don’t have class today in the afternoon, so I’m just finishing my assignments, and just being happy.

P.S.

I’m happy because of one certain person, and I’m not talking about my crush!!

P.P.S.

I’m getting impatient with the APEC Cyber Academy site!!! Why is it taking so long, damn it!!!

Actually, it was my day that went so damn rotten.

In the morning, we had classes in Computer Education and had practice in Choir. After that, we had the opening of the school’s annual Science Fair. Around 10 am, the Science Olympics were held. First event was Weight Lifting. It was pretty awesome. I’ve witnessed it before during The Regional Science Fair last year.

Then, afternoon came. Ma’am Bulado, our adviser and English teacher, drove Lawrence, Akemi and I into insanity, since she needed the ball for the football team. We, being the First Year supervisers, had to run around the campus to look for the guy whom Ma’am assigned the ball to. Lawrence and I got super mad that we kept saying nasty things. A LOT.

Then, Akemi and I watched the Tug-of-War, another event of the Science Olympics. It was so cool!! I’ve felt so happy just being able to witness it!

Then, something came up. I found out about a certain thing that I don’t want to talk about, and just want to forget about it. It really hurt my feeling so bad, that I cried in the bathroom, while talking to my supportive bestie. I really felt so frustrated toward a certain person.

So anyway, after that agonozing moment, I tried to console myself by going to SPED with my bestie. But, it turns out, that the person whom we were looking for was not there. The SPEDers didn’t have classes today.

Then, I tried to stay in school, but I couldn’t take it. I just had to go home. I still felt bad. I still felt frustrated. I still felt like it was the end of everything. So upon arriving home, I got a glass of Refresh juice, and I listened to my cellphone’s radio, where the stations were presenting stupid love songs that I had no choice but to listen to, since there was no rock music.

I really wish I could cry once more. But I told myself, ‘hey, let’s forget about it and move on’. That’ll be kinda hard, but I hope the pain would pass, and tomorrow would just be a typical, normal day with twists.

What do you do if you were pitted against a guy in every contest, competition, the stuff you join? ANd that people keep comparing you and that guy??

Well, that has happened to li’l old me. Last year, when I was in Grade 6, thanks to the kindness of the heavens (yeah right), I was pited against Carlo Mendoza. Damn, I kept seeing him inthe contests I’ve joined!!! No offence to him really, he is smart, but come on!!! Does he have to be that smart that I have to see him everywhere??? And I thought I killed this issue!!!

It goes like this: Today, we had our Science Quiz Bowl. History repeated itself, except my teammates were Misty and Sammy, and his were Xavier and Angel, and that it was only school level. It was unbearable!!! Our Easy, Average and Difficult scores were all the same!!! And we tied in for 1st place. And guess what? He beat me again. And my classmates, since they know about it, had to say it in my face that Carlo and I were destined to compete against each other. Boy, was I mad enough to not say hi to a certain person out there!!

Please have mercy on me!! I can’t take having to compete with Xavier, who is very samrt, let alone Carlo!!!

P.S.

When I saw tha person, I really got mesmerised by his wider-than-my-own grin. And I’ve embarrassed myself to the next millenium when i choked on my candy, and it got worse when I saw him…Oh, forsaked, yet happy life.

Can I go insane now????

I have had a week’s dose of a certain person out there…and that person is truly driving me insane!!!!!! Please help me…

After classes today, we didn’t have RCY, since Ate Heart, Ate Laurelie, Kuya Ralph and the other coordinator guys had their meeting…and before Akemi, Axl and I left, that person did something. Akemi was saying good bye to this person, and that person was looking for me. Akemi called me, I turned around and that person smiled at me!!! A big ear-to-ear grin if you ask me!!! That person really completed my darn day…haha…

So, if you have common sense, you might have guessed that that person is my crush (yes, I am normal! I am not mental that I don’t have a stupid, darn crush, heck!), and that that person is male (DUH!!!). My friends know who this person is…and that person is way older than me, but is in our school (hey, some of my friends have crushes the same age and year as my crush!).

I am almost in line to go to the mental hospital for people with crush disorders…Well, I hope you guys are having a good life like mine….

Bye